Lent

So Lent is my most favorite time of the church year. It is the one time that I consistently focus on the readings, the homily, the music. I try my best to focus the rest of the year, but even the kids can't interrupt my focus during lent.

I also love the music. I love church music all year round and often judge how good mass was based on the songs we sang but during lent and Easter I love the music that much more. I always wish I was able to sing a little bit better (ok, a lot better) because I love to sing so much in church but always feel bad for the people in front of me. Oh well. God knows how much I love to sing and if he cared about the quality of my voice he would have given me a better singing voice I guess. I bet He thinks I sing beautifully, so who else matters?

Gettin skinny

Well I finally signed up for weight watchers. I am determined to lose some weight. I've been doing it (online only) for 1 week and so far so good! I weighed in this morning and am down about 5 pounds in the first week! I think that partially has to do with my crappy scale that I used last week. But I'll take it! Hopefully I can keep up 2 pounds a week- that would be awesome.

Even with Coen's birthday party during last week, I still ended up with a few extra points (which they don't recommend, but I'm ok with it) I definitely didn't starve (the first two days I was a little hungry) but I am just much more aware of what I put in my mouth. Someone brought muffins in to work the other day, two weeks ago I would have eaten half, at least, without even thinking about it. When I calculated how many points one muffin was it was about 45% of my daily points. So I said no thanks! So proud of myself.

I paid for a 3 month membership so I hope I can stick with it for at least 3 months. That plus exercising and I'm hoping I look better than I do now when I go to Florida in June.

Tonight or tomorrow we are hopefully going to try the biking thing again. I just hope Cadence gets in.

So grateful

Wow! I can't believe how fast these past four years went. 4 years ago today (in about 1.5 hours) I became a mom. Greatest moment of my life ever. Somedays I still can't believe I'm a mom, let alone a mom to three kids! Its unreal.

And its unreal how fast it could all be taken away. Yesterday was the biggest scare of my entire life. The moment I turned around and saw Cadence under that woman's car, trapped in her bike trailer. It is still so unreal. Josh and I are both having nightmares still, all of the what ifs. Josh had the worse view of the event as he was behind me and saw the entire thing. He remembers nothing of what happened from the time the woman ran over Cadence until we were all on the sidewalk.

I was a little more rational, calling 911 and moving my bike to the sidewalk. I guess that's me though, get things organized. Keeping busy, always moving.

Worst day and night's sleep of my life. Horrific, terrifying, and we all came out better than fine in the end. But why won't my mind shut off. We are so blessed to have three amazing kids, and very watchful guardian angels.